its may be wiser to just give up tis blog since the past few entries show a very dark aspect of my life?

might considering migrating my blog to somewhere else brighter... carn be bothered with custom layout. u guys/ gals come here to read my words nt to see how beautiful it is rite??

http://jemx.wordpress.com

I think I'm seriously down with clinical depression.

Fleeting tots of s-word. Clouded visions... Studies mean no more to me anymore. Interest... what's this word??

Frens... family... him and him...? impt ppl? relli?

2 decades is more than enuff...

m a fat dung. m a short tart. m a insensitive bast. m a horrible fren/ person. m an unloving creep. THERE! YOU HAVE IT! HAPPY NOW??

dun be surprised if u see me in the papers... for the wrong reasons...

bye world!

Nowadays, I'm waking up feeling much worse than I've been when I entered sleep... Terrible now...

Yea to those optimism nuts... i noe im blessed... with lotsa stuff... but here's wad im not happy with... im much more of an emotional wreck than anything else...

frens haf somehow lost all foothold in my life. i was so used to talking to frens on the fone... talking over msn, chatting over life, bitchin wadeva... just making our bond in our own special way...

now... frens from sec sch haf slowly drifted away...worst of all, my best fren seems to be a distant memory which i can only hold dearly to my heart. its the hols now, yet there's like no contact betwn me and mi best pal... how sad... we once mentioned that we had to be there and actually last.. and not just fade way like everything else in life... bs! terribly disappointed cos he was the only fren to have been there with me since day one in sec sch...

barely around in rjc for several months... frens there are more colleagues than frens at all. even my closest fren there is so busy with the many projects and intellectual-ies. Dun blame him really.. we're all in RJ to make the best for our future... but the thing is... thru so, i've lost the chance of having close frens... frens tt wld be able to shed a tear for me, frens tt wld give me a warm hug - sth tt i'm so alien to now... drats...

i really miss the times i had when i was younger... most memorable of them all had to be with mel and rach... they were my frens since i was in diapers man!! grew up together, yet now we're like... so so far apart... feels horrid ya noe...

>>dear mel and rach: i noe u2 read this.. so... i still really treasure the both of you... i believe this distance now wld be overcome by the sheer bonds that we've built for more than a decade :D

and to clear the fallacy... not everyone in rj is hardworking... just look at me... i look at my books and notes and get totally turned off. yucks! i carn seem to sit down and study... but the funny thing is tt i seem to haf the content of my work... but can betcha this knowledge itself wun work in jc... haiz... muggerism! return to me!

need time machine, Morpheus' red pill, carbon monoxide mask, calcium chloride shots, a life, a car accident...

adios. sigh..